Before you continue to read, know that I am by NO means saying that watching tv makes you a bad mom.
With that said, summer is here in full force! Ben is busy with his rotations and studying for his boards. Noah has his summer break from preschool, and I found myself almost panicking because I have been dreading the summer. I have been dreading not being able to go to the park whenever we wanted, and basically being stuck inside. When you're stuck inside for so long, it is very easy to let the kids watch a movie or a show so we all get a "break". I mean who doesn't love watching movies? In our home, with my kids it became a little too much. I've discussed with other moms about screen time and ours wasn't anything crazy. Yet for my kids, it made them a little crazy.
I had been praying so much for help and guidance. How can I teach them better? How can I be more loving? What do I need to do to keep our home at peace? How can I be a better mom? All those questions, and you guys it has been HARD! Many prayers, many tears, feeling defeated and not feeling an answer to my prayers. I felt a couple times how I didn't deserve to be their mom because I wasn't doing a good job. I was feeling real low and stressed because I knew we needed to do something... I just didn't know what yet.
My mood consisted of easily becoming irritated, no patience and no fun. It came to a point where the kids would wake up WAY early, and the first thing they would ask for was to watch a show. We'd say no or not right now then (insert mega tantrum). That is when it hit me, we needed a break from the tv. We needed to stop with the shows and the movies and just let them be creative. I needed to be more involved with them, play with them more, laugh with them more, create more memories and not let the tv be an option. I needed to be more present with them.
The first three days were the hardest, I had to say no a lot. I had to come up with different things to do that N & O would enjoy. But you guys, it has been the best change and decision we have ever made with our kids. It has been over 2 weeks now, and we treat them with a movie on Friday night. You should see their faces, they get SO excited and actually appreciate watching the movie. The kids wake up and they want to play with their toys, play with each other, help me make breakfast, and go play with their friends. I have seen such drastic change with their attention and mood. They get excited about simply coloring. Noah is so fun and his imagination is so exciting to watch.
These are the kind of memories I want them to have. There's nothing more enjoyable then the sound of my children's laughter. To some this may sound drastic, but this has hands down been the best decision ever.
Happy Hump Day