Last week was hard, emotionally hard. Who knew a toddler could make you cry and then laugh historically 5 minutes later. Although there were many ups, there were a lot more downs. Motherhood is hard you guys, real hard. I applaud all you Mothers for your strength, unconditional love and for being plain awesome!!! While I was struggling with my toddler, trying to understand him and his needs, I was also just having a hard time with myself. Having a hard time loving me, and feeling worthy of this "mama" title. All these thoughts were just weighing me down, there were lots of tears and lots of prayers. I prayed for guidance to know how to help my children the best way. Most importantly, I needed to find that love and strength within myself.
It's easy to compare yourself with other moms, and sometimes feel like you should be doing more. Trying to be like that instagram mother you follow that seem to live the perfect life. Here's the thing, your children loves YOU, just the way you are.
Elder Holland's talk came to my mind (which happens to be the talk of the week), coincidence?... Maybe... But I know this was inspired and I encourage every mother to read this talk often (here).
" To all mothers in every circumstance, including those who struggle—and all will—I say, “Be peaceful. Believe in God and yourself. You are doing better than you think you are. "
Those words were exactly what I needed to hear, I know this was the answer I was looking for.
I had scheduled a shoot with my new friend Becca (find her work here), but that morning started rough. I was frustrated with my look (mostly my hair) and felt insecure about our photo session. I wanted to do a holiday look, but not the typical (red, green, gold) look. I got this skirt and absolutely loved it, and decided to use it for my Holiday look. These pictures were a reminder to me to never doubt how strong I am, to be confident and to always love myself.
I shared one of these photos last week, and I got so many compliments from you. THANK YOU for making this girl grin from ear to ear. Sometimes you just need someone to smack you with a bucket of confidence, for you to wake up and look in the mirror and say "I'm sexy and I know it". I hope you enjoy the rest of these photos! Special thank you to Becca for taking these, and hooray for new friendships.
Photography: Becca (www.foundphotography.net)
Top: TJ Maxx
Dress: Shein I got size Small
MERRY CHRISTMAS FRIENDS!