Hard times will constantly be there
-that won't change-
But so will Christ
and with him we are able to overcome and conquer absolutely everything.
- Al Carraway
I always knew I wanted to be a mother one day. When I was younger I always loved playing with the little kids and dreamed about one day running after my own. I never knew the sacrifice, the sweat and the tears motherhood would come with. My mother and my older sisters, never really showed the hard and tough days. Or maybe they did, but I never saw the struggles of motherhood until I was the one struggling. I never knew that there was such a thing as "postpartum depression" or "baby blues". I never knew that a baby would rock your world to the max! I never knew that some women couldn't breastfeed and some would feel a disconnect with their child. There were a lot of things I didn't know, until I became a mother myself.
The day after Noah was born, Ben and I were laying in my hospital bed, holding each other, in tears, wondering what in the world did we get ourselves into. Ben was taking 18 credits, he was super busy and we just welcomed a new baby into our family. We wanted this, we wanted a family, we loved our son so much, but we didn't know how hard it'll be. You don't know these things, you can't really prepare for these things either. I know that there are people out there that deal with much worse things than I do, no matter the degree, I couldn't have done it without Christ. I knew that He trusted us to be parents, and He was there at all times.
"As we make Christ the center of our lives, our fears will be replaced by the courage of our convictions." - Thomas S. Monson
I don't think I have ever prayed so much until I became a Mother. I literally pray ALL the time haha! Many might sound like this: "Heavenly Father, please help these kids fall asleep, so I can rest and stay sane", "Help me, help them" or "Heavenly Father, I don't know what to do, please help me. I feel like a terrible mother."
I have never felt so close to heaven until I had Noah. I knew Heavenly Father trusted me with his child. I just didn't know how much I would need Him to reassure me that that was the case.
I read talks all the time about motherhood, because I know these words are from our Father in Heaven. I ask for blessings from my Husband often, and I know that the words spoken are from God. I couldn't do motherhood without the gospel in my life, without constant communication with my Savior. I used to think that I could do a lot of things on my own, but with Christ I can do so much more. I see His hand in my life, daily. I seek for it daily. It helps me more than I ever knew was possible.
Never be afraid to ask for help, don't be afraid to pray. God is there, just waiting for us to seek him. Whether you are a mom or not, seek Him daily and I promise you will see how He will bless you.
I know that we each have our struggles, our battles and our weaknesses. You don't have to go through them alone, God is there for that exact reason.
We are blessed by our efforts of trying, not perfection.